Whew, what an experience my birth and postpartum period have been. Much of it has been unexpected, although with this being my second birth and postpartum experience, I’m not sure why I was silly enough to have expectations in the first place. One thing that was expected was the shedding of an old skin that welcoming another baby always brings for moms. This shedding applies to so many areas of my life, much of which I’m still figuring out. This birth and postpartum experience shook me to my core, broke me down and is building me up even stronger than before.
My birth was both beautiful and traumatic. Much of it I will cherish and am incredibly grateful to have experienced and much of it left me feeling incapable and broken. As most moms do, immediately after birth I picked myself up and carried on. I let the emotions come in waves and tried to feel them to the best of my ability while still being a mom of a toddler and newborn who was nursing around the clock. I went through a wave of postpartum depression and soon after that postpartum anxiety followed. The anxiety got so bad that as exhausted as I was, I was struggling to get sleep, even when my newborn was sleeping.
That’s not to say that I didn’t experience moments of absolute happiness and bliss during the past few months. There were certainly those - the boys meeting for the first time, watching Bodie transform into this amazing big brother all on his own, our first family hike, sweet moments while breastfeeding and just enjoying the days with my husband and sons. But something inside me was screaming, begging for me to reach out to someone to guide me through this new transformation I was going through and work with me to heal from my birth trauma, and other traumas I never fully processed from in the past.
So I’m happy to say that with this most recent birth experience, as hard as it was, I was given a chance for deep healing. This healing has me moving forward in ways that I haven’t in the past, certainly as a better self than before.
It’s so interesting to me how birth can unearth all the things you want to suppress AND open up new ways of being and a new passion for life. It was a totally transformative experience, and it still is. I’m stepping into a version of myself that I haven’t been before and that of course bleeds into my work with Healthy Foundations.
Moving forward, my passion still remains in helping women treat their physical, emotional and spiritual bodies with the respect it deserves. The best way I can give women a foundation for that respect is through educating them on how to nourish themselves through nutrition. So after the new year, I will be launching Nutrition for Women, an educational guide to dropping all the diet rules you’re used to and instead getting the nutrients your body needs, and in return, firing up your metabolic health.
If you’re interested in participating in the first launch (major discount!), please sign up for the waitlist below. There will be a limited number of spots for this first launch and they will be first come, first serve.
Link for the waitlist: https://forms.wix.com/r/7135725725742531417
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